This is just an incredibly sad day for me. Thank heavens the sun is shinning. Mike's & my good friend, Don Estell, was killed Sun. night in a plane crash in St. Louis. Don was a fraternity brother of Mike's and a really good friend and I just can't believe both of these men are gone. They were both such a giant presence on this earth that all of us who were close to them are feeling such a giant whole in our universe.
Don married Linda probably a year after Mike and I were married. We were all in college together and since the guys were in the same fraternity, we spent lots of time together. The guys were both wild and crazy and everytime I've thought of Don the last few days, I've gotten a smile on my face. So many stories come to mind of things they did that young men do when they've had a few beers and no fear of anything. It's so strange how they both grew to be such responsible adult men who loved and took such good care of their families. They both loved talking about their kids and then to have seen them as grandfathers was incredible. Where does the time go?
Today I'm especially thinking of Linda. They had such plans. They loved to travel and to be on the ocean and he talked of getting a place in Costa Rica when he could finally pry Linda away from her grandchildren. We're too young to have to give up on those dreams.
Allison told me this week about their lesson in bible study and it's really made me do a lot of thinking. She said God does not make bad things happen nor does he try to stop them, but He does bring incredible joy afterward if you just open your heart to him. I know this to be true because I've felt incredible happiness since Mike died mainly because of the life that Mike & I made together. All the things in my life that remind me of him are the very things that bring me incredible joy. When I hear our grandkids speak so openly about Grampa and their love for him, I have incredible joy. Sometimes they're sad because they miss him but I know that's only because they felt his love. And I have our Allison. She brings me such incredible joy.
When I have my sad times, I think of how Mike would hate for me to waste one minute with regrets. He would want me to live for the both of us and I think I'm doing that. He's almost always with me and one thing of which I'm certain is that he wanted me to be happy. I'm hoping that Linda will see that when the initial shock is over and be able to go on with her dreams. Don would so want that for her because he certainly lived his life to the fullest.